by: Jamie Rautenberg
I normally post original content here, but this post by Elizabeth Gilbert, one of my favorite authors, touched me so deeply that I had to share it for what it can teach us.
I think a lot of us can relate to a state of being in chronic pain whether that’s physical or not. Depression & anxiety can be their own forms of chronic pain leading down a path of wasted hope and potential.
However, the one thing we often miss when we’re in a state of suffering, is that the antidote disguised as poison is staring us right in the face: we must use our pain. It’s an opportunity to go deeper and connect to our lost self who we miss so dearly during those rocky times.
We remember what we forgot when we look under the hood at the mess we fear to see. We can use our minds to shift our perception of what’s hurting & use it for its unique perspective on what’s not working in our lives. We sit with it and validate it until we transform it into new opportunities for what does work for us.
In essence, we evolve.
And so, I leave you with Liz’s wisdom and an invitation for us to use our gorgeous mess for all the catharsis it provides.
Thought of the day: NEVER WASTE YOUR SUFFERING.
Dear Ones —
I wanted to re-post these thoughts, which I originally posted here last year.
I’ve been thinking about my old friend Jim Maclaren for some reason a lot lately. He was one of the most remarkable men I ever knew, and I wanted to share these thoughts of him again.
I wrote a profile about Jim years ago for GQ magazine, documenting his extraordinary journey, and we remained friends after that story was published.
Here was his tale: Jim had been a handsome, young, athletic, Yale drama school-trained aspiring actor back in the 1980s, when he was hit by a bus one day and lost his leg. He courageously pulled his life back together after this trauma and went on to become the fastest amputee long-distance triathlete in the world, regularly finishing Iron Man races far ahead of his able-bodied competitors. He also became a motivational speaker, and, if anything, grew into a better and more successful man than he’d been before his accident.
And then, unbelievably, in 1993 he was hit by a car AGAIN while competing in a triathlon…and this time he became a paraplegic. (As he himself said in response to such a horrible run of double-bad luck: “Jesus fuck, for fuck’s sake, can you fucking believe it?!”) After this disaster, he fell into despair and became a drug addict, until the moment of his catharsis — the moment that he decided not only to live, but to search tirelessly (almost mythically) for greatest benefit that he could possibly draw from his broken destiny. He stubbornly committed to asking himself, Who was the best person he could become, after such suffering? What could this anguish specifically teach him about compassion, about the randomness of our lives, about grace, about surrender? He told me, “For the longest time, my goal was only to be able to walk across the room. But then I remembered what my real goals in life have always been — to know God, to know myself, to know wisdom, to know my fellow man. And was I going to get there by walking across the room? Or did I need to change my focus, and expand it?”
But what I will always remember about Jim most clearly is when he told me, “Never waste your suffering.” This was in response to a question I’d asked him about whether he thought that suffering makes us into better people. He said, “Not necessarily. Not automatically. Suffering just happens, constantly and randomly, and if you don’t make anything out of it, then it causes you nothing but harm — it happened to you for no reason. But suffering can also be the greatest possible invitation to transform — but only if you accept that invitation, and only if you go through a complete catharsis, and only if you actually change yourself because of what you’ve experienced. But that part is up to you. Only you can execute a catharsis in your own life. Suffering without catharsis is nothing but wasted pain. And you should never waste your pain, never waste your suffering. It’s powerful stuff, the most powerful stuff there is. Use it. Transform from it. Learn. Grow. Be better.”
I want to repeat that one line, because it has never stopped ringing in my head: SUFFERING WITHOUT CATHARSIS IS NOTHING BUT WASTED PAIN.
Don’t ever let your pain be wasted. Make something of it. Use it for transformation. Harness its power and evolve.
Jim MacLaren died in 2010 (his injuries and infections finally defeated him) but I have never forgotten his words, his determination. I have tried as hard as possible to learn by his extraordinary example — to never miss the chance for a catharsis, to never stop fighting for the light, never stop evolving.
So that’s what I woke up thinking about this morning, and I wanted to share it with all of you.
Blessings, and Rest in Peace Jim MacLaren.